I went on my first blind date yesterday and it was as awkward as anticipated.
Afterwards, I fought with my mother. I told her there is an ocean between us, neither one of us can cross over.
Animals know to keep their bellies hidden, they know the dangers in strangers.
The vapid whispers around me, conspiring right in front. Because I am an alien that must be brought to heel. Do they even care that I can hear them? That this is demeaning? Does SHE care that her rejection hurts the most? It feels like needles piercing into my torso.
Thoughts on marriage.... is that it is rejection by my closest family. That it is agreeing to things you don't want because how I live is unacceptable.
BTW, I'm an ace and aro.
