when I want to talk, shall I write?

I want to talk, but I cut myself off from the world. Mom's reflection in Asrar, new shoes for Noyontara, too much spending today. Wondering if I should buy that watercolor paper.,.........  

So many things in my head. 

❤️

rare moments of missing the father

hot and sour soup

While watching the video, I missed my dad. He never cooked hot and sour soup. He is not a the best cook. He understood all of the basics, but then he would do something crazy, like add a spoonful of turmeric or the next health fad. I missed him while watching the video. It's so strange. Sometimes we miss our worst memories. I missed him. I miss him. I'm missing him.